January 25, 2012

This is the Problem. (Jim Oliver's Smokehouse, August 2010)

Date: January 25, 2012

Day #: 310

Starting Weight: 369

Weight (As of 1/20): 222

Cardio Exercise: 75 Minutes

Food Intake: F

I had predicted the Town Hall meeting this evening would lead to disaster and I was correct. 300+ days into the diet and I still have the inability to control myself around foods I can’t control. Day started great – fruit for breakfast and a half a potato boiled for lunch, so that by 5pm I had only had 2 of my 44 points. So far so VERY good, but the catered BBQ was a disaster. I had one sandwich, sans sauce, no knowledge of the points, but was going to estimate 10, but then I picked at the dry, peppery chicken for a good 15 minutes, at one point totally losing all self-control. I acknowledge this is a problem and I am still not sure of how to avoid it. That being said, I’ll get back on the horse; I did 75 minutes of intense treadmill work that will hopefully counterbalance this, but if this one day ruins Fridays weigh-in I’ll know where the mistake was made. I can cling t0 the fact that I did so well until the meeting; went to the 50% sale at Food Lion and stocked up on Tuna, got some fruit and ignored the cookies and candy, which was plentiful. EARNEST opens this Friday and I have laid in some healthy snacks and fruit that will counterbalance the Snicker-filled concession stand. I have to make it past the opening night catering, which is, again, free food. If I sound down I am, because I’m disappointed in myself; the difference is, before the change this was my daily feeling, and now it’s only when I realize that I’ve made a tragic eating mistake. I can see outside myself and the destructive eating and gorging that I can see. There has to be a psychological component besides “I like the taste,” and that’s the part of myself I need to get a grasp on. Weigh-in day is coming up and I hope to go into the weekend with a positive bump.